Chew

It has been a while. Many things has happened and Alhamdulillah most of it are good things. The house is ready, not fully but we consider it ready as we have been staying overnight during weekend for the past few weeks. There's still a little bit of touch up work here and there and just kena pejam mata and urut dada each time you sees a little tiny winy things that for my standard - still not done yet! But overall I am satisfied. The design is as per what we imagined, white door, white border/skirting around the house...modern english. There's a lot of windows/sliding where we can get our natural lights - though at some point mcm expose pulak sebab u can see your neighbor and all. Berangan rumah tepi pantai or dalam hutan mcm rumah Edward in Twilight :p. As we get the house ready and all - trying to furnish and to think of what is best for the kids, we look around for school and manage to register my second child to school of our choice. I had a warm feeling going to this school as the kids and the teacher are all friendly. Now the only challenge is to get Aariz to the same school and we can only do the transfer in November.And we call the office who manage the transfer, upon hearing the school name terus kata "Ala Encik susah nak masuk sekolah ni" and we where like what? I cannot be sending my kids to two different school. It's going to be manic for us to send them each morning. Belum bila no 3 masuk kindy. Anyway, we just try again in November and see how it goes. No when we said kita mampu merancang dan Tuhan yang menentukan - our plan (my plan has changed again in a blink). While getting the house ready, while scouting for schools and activities for our kids, scratching our head to get which school bus driver and all and all of sudden I am pregnant with no 4. No 4...hurm...My oh my. I know once I said maybe I shld be thinking of no 4 right after no 3...but that is all in my mind... And out of the blue I feel hungry all the time, then I start to vomit and that is the alarm. Check pregnancy test 1 negative, check 2 positive...and I am now a grumpy mummy who vomit day and night 8 weeks pregnant. Pwehhhh it took me a long week to think and think what should I do next. What I should really do. This is no 4 and no joke - my third one is still a baby!. My second is going to primary 1 next year, we are in the midst of moving house and pretty far from my parents. I mean not near enough to get them to help sending or picking up from school if there is emergency or looking after my 3rd and 4th baby... And as I think and think, things become pretty clear. Maybe I should try...maybe I should see how it goes. If I become a full time mom. I have less money or maybe no money (since it will be solely hubby punya belas ikhsan kan) but I may have the happiness. My kids may become a better person. I may not need to abandon this blog again and I can concentrate on my passion like baking and cooking! Too many to chew? Yes it is for me too.