34 weeks - on the positive note

OK let me start to blog about the good thing that happen to me during this pregnancy. I got pregnant and I didn't realize that I am pregnant until one day I get my breakfast and suddenly puke. That's not normal right! Set me an alarm and here you go - hi baby no 4!.

The not so good which I will not dwell in this posting is that the morning sickness still the same and start to kick in right after I knew that I am pregnant. But of course like the rest of my pregnancy the gender guessing is the best part ever. We waited and waited until the day that the doctor says - look it's a girl!  Guess who has the biggest smile of all. Of course dear hubby. So we spill the news to our boys and Aariz went over the moon while Fawwaz is really upset. When I asked he simply said "Now I can't go around and mandi bogel anymore :(". Among all my kids as of now, he is the drama king of the house, yet so innocent.

Second trimester is where you see me cooking day and night. Is like I'm under cooking spell. I really love cooking and baking and I experimented quite a number of new recipe. I never cooked this much in my entire life. So this must be the baby. Coincide with my new house and my series of housewarming, rather than I cater ( I did once during kenduri doa selamat ) I went on and on cooking for friends and family. Slowly but surely I make sure everyone are full and happy- eating.

Then come the third trimester - there is a mood swing by this time, cooking becoming less and less of my interest now. I developed a new hobby. Home deco - not that I manage to fully deco my house because of the money constraint (yeah no more extras that we can use to buy that 10k painting or to put a 10k playground outside the house or to have 10k worth of landscaping ...sob sob). So we have to settle with what we have left - which make my semi creative mind work hard to think what I can do. First I make hubby to buy some trees...yes our house is togel just like that and I hate it. So now, we have like 7 trees outside the house and 2 inside. Still no canggih manggih landscape but we work with what we have la yer. Then I have plenty of empty walls. So I bought multiple frames from ikea - and wall stickers from viva homes. Till now still resting happily at our nursing room. Of course I come out with all the idea but I need someone to work on it right and that's hubby lah! Sigh don't know when he will start to work on that pulak. Not to mention those ayat2 resting nicely dalam store waiting for their turn to be hung on the wall. The other thing not to forget is to re-design kids room.Yeah earlier  when we moved in I have set one room for my eldest, while the second and third can share the other room. Now with the new addition, I've been thinking to move no 1 and 2 to the bigger room while no 3 and 4 stays at the middle room. Means in terms or bedding and all that I have to move around too and buy a new set too. So last few weeks, we bought a super single each for my eldest and second child, leave them at the room where they currently stays in, add in Expedite furniture from Ikea so that they can keep some of their books and toys in the room. The other room where they supposed to move in - we furnish with a cupboard (its empty before just full with toys), add in Expedite and a chest drawer from Ikea so when the time come we can send no 3 and 4 to this room. As of now this serve more as a play room as the toy is all over the place! Then we moved the queen bed to the guest room below, furnish the guest room with small cupboard and chest drawer, and I put baby cot there so that will serve as my confinement room and nursing room. Oh yeah and I bought a small round table to be put next to my wet kitchen. Next is to move my 2 seater sofa from family area second floor to my kitchen dining area. I want to have a small cosy corner that people can sit on the sofa while a few other drink coffee from the round table or from my Island.

They are quite a number of thing I would like to add to the house, like arm chair for the main hall to accompany my L shape sofa, some bean bag for our family area and few bean bag for the play room too!. Again few things have to wait lah kan...as I said tabung dah menyurut and last I check I still considering option to be full time housewife though the offer to do part time still valid. But seriously 4 kids - I know my maid can't cope and I don't feel like putting my kids future to her too haha.

See my good thing posting goes pretty long right! I am looking forward for the new chapter of my life to start! Yeah new addition of the family is always something to look forward. You will wonder how it will impact the family dynamic and all that. I have one super curious boy, one super drama and another super bossy - so what's next ?

34 weeks and counting

This is my 34 weeks. I have as early as 3 weeks (if i don't go for pre-term labor which I wish I will not) or as long as 6-8 more weeks to go. But as the rest of the majority mothers out there, this is the phase where you feels like" owh tak tahan and I just want to pop now and get it done and over!".

I want my body back, I want my normal me feelings back, I want my energy my spirit to go up normal and as usual!. Sigh - I know it selfish. They said the longer the baby in the tummy the better for the baby, for their development and so on!.

Well though this is not the first time for me, to be exact ...number 4 normal pregnancy for me but the whole experience and feelings is totally different. Not sure is it because of the age, or the gender of the baby that I'm carrying - I feels energetic at one time then tired to the max the next time. I had this peak of really high stress level in my working life here in my current role for a duration of time that i guess effect my pregnancy stability too. And now towards the end I had all this funny symptom like super early braxton hicks contraction and it went super long and super uncomfortable (painful but I won't describe it as super painful) that I think I may go to labor like anytime soon. Concentration - yeah I totally lost it!. I think at some point of time I become a really dangerous lady driver as I really not sure what am I thinking. The most honk I received in my life is during my final trimester for this pregnancy! Luckily so far nothing really bad happen.

Well this is the down side that I'm feeling right now - and I can keep on going on and on about it.

THE FACT - they are quite a number of good things happening during this pregnancy too. Which is not fair that I keep on focusing on the bad one kan...I will update on the good one later...

Dear Diary

Dear Diary - Ecewah. OK too girlish - better stick to my own writing style.

I have few things going on, first is the launch of the one and only project that I handle. We've been working on it for almost a year and finally it is going somewhere. This project is the reasons that I am still here working and the only reasons that when I said I am not continuing after I give birth to my real baby next year and the bosses like pretend that they do not hear my request and try to make me feels like this project is my baby too and I should at least stay and work part time if necessary. The reasons I keep on thinking to or not to leave the company. Anyway on that - I still have at least 2 more months to think about it.

The next one - though the launch of my project will be next week, in the spirit of moving to the new house, ku gagahkan jua utk buat kenduri doa selamat. I make it strictly for families, neighbors - no friends (except for my 4 primary school friends as they are not many of them I keep in touch with). Reasons being, with my current condition I don't think I will be able to entertain the crowd, I want it to be a simple doa selamat with the close one and if I start inviting our friends...almost2 boleh jadi kenduri kawen.The only downside is that when you split the occasion into few then byk la pulak majlis nak kena host. But I like to host makan2 so I am ok with that.So the first one will be held this weekend, mostly cater though of course my mom would like to cook a dish or two but I decided the rest kena source out. I don't have the energy to clean or to cook as of now.

K la...that's the rambling for today. Later

Suke hati

Suke suke hati kan kejap tulis kejap ilang. Of course suka hati I, it's my blog right :). Anyway I've been thinking to write but it's either turn to be really whiny so I thought maybe I should wait for the phase to go off, or if it's something cheerful I may need to put some picture to show you why I am cheerful.


Like today, actually since yesterday. You know weekend now I will stay at my new crib. And I always wanted to share with you the favorite part of the house. The house which why I am so proud of it because the concept and the original idea is all came from us! You see we started with just counting how many square feet we have, I mean the land size area. Then we start to imagine how many room we need, and why. The house have 6+1 room which many were saying " banyak bilik". But come to think about it we are not living like just 3 of us or something. We have 7 + 1 coming along soon. Not to mention that we have a lot of guest, and I love guest. So there's our room, the kids room (sharing basis - 2 room), my mil room (yes she may or may not stays with us), the maid room, one study room and another guest room. See I told ya, I love guest! So I must have a proper guest room, which turn out that the bathroom at the guest room is the second largest in the house haha. One of the minor design flaw if you ask me :). You might be one of my guest ;).

Anyway then it come to few more detailing, like I must be able to see the ground floor for our first floor. Because I am crazy scared to not to know or see what is up there or down there. So we have a beautiful viewing area from our family hall upstairs that can view the main hall down there. Own and I must have a huge bathroom, I always wanted a bathroom just like a hotel bathroom. Even with the space constraint, yeap I am able to have that too. But because of that I have to sacrifice the full walk-in wardrobe by just having a mini one facing the bathroom and the rest is in my room. It's hard to visual rite, that's why I said earlier that my happy posting need to have picture in it :p. But I am lazy and I am pregnant so I can get away from that :). I love the bathroom and my bedroom and I love the fact that bathroom is open - no doors !! Sexy huh :)Yeah yeah I just want to let you keep on imagining things haha!

We have balcony, two of them. One is at our bedroom and the other one is at the family area. The second balcony is impromptu decisions because there is a space, it's kind a big enough to turn it as balcony and it turn to be beautiful too. The contractor made a nice bench there for us to just chill there petang2 sambil minum kopi. But we also have another open patio at the ground floor that is also cool for us to just lepak there for minum2...

Okla hubby bising, ask me to get some shower. I can go on and on about what are other things that I like here, but I will just make you pissed off too. Mainly because you have no idea what am I talking about kan haha! Yes yes I should take a picture and post it here, or maybe you should come and visit, and be our guest :)

Be thankful

Hubby saw my blog posting and his comment was on the formatting. Ok fine, I didn't put in paragraph. I actually did when I'm writing the blog post but when I publish it the formatting all gone haywire. And I am too lazy to figure out how to make it better yet!. Anyway today I work from home again. My boss is being too nice allowing me to work from home. Which helps a lot because I need enough sleep and I can't stop vomiting yet. This time round all food taste awful even drinks, I've tried almost everything and the after taste really killing me because it will trigger either to vomit or a very bad nausea. And as usual I can just whine about how bad is my pregnancy and how I wish all this can pass by as soon as possible. The only thing that I should be thankful is how supportive people around me are. Like my boss who allow me to work from home, hubby that did almost everything from cleaning, taking care of the kids and myself as well as my parents who obliging giving me anything that I want to eat or to drink. Like just now, I crave for air kelapa, then out of nowhere fresh coconut is ready for me. The kids, well they are the sweetest. They massage me, like really massage me and then they take turn be with me when hubby is out to buy food or do errands. Well to start with this is just the first 2 months. I have 7 more months to go. Wish me luck!

Centro KLCC and hairkunst The Curve

I'm just checking my reader statistic to see if I still have readers during my quiet time...apparently people drop by to read about the spa review. Pretty interesting. I just notice that since I move to my new role 2 years back, my spa activity has reduced tremendously but my hair salon activity has increased. Bukan sebab apa...basuh rambut require less time and more cost economic if I just want to have a quick relaxing time. When I work in KLCC a while back, my favorite hair salon was Centro. The only down side is that wash and blow cost you around RM60. Which is a bit too expensive, but the service is not that bad. Why is not that bad rather than excellence? Because depending on the who did the wash and blow, the scalp massage service can be really good or it can be just so so. Since last year our office has moved to new location, near to The Curve. And I didn't try any due to the workload. But I keep on reading review recommending hairkunst salon. So few months back I gave a try...and guess what, I fell in love immediately. They have equipment that when they wash your hair you feels like its really clean your scalp. I don't know what they call it but it was good. I've tried a few time there, it cost me RM35 for wash and blow. The service is good and again depending on who did your hair, it may varies. But at least this one it goes from either really good or not bad at all. I know the fact that I am a hair salon and spa junkie... But I have to be realistic here. Soon I'm going to have my number 4 and I plan to be stay at home mom for at least a year or two...means I have to be prudent. I need to look out for DIY spa, facial, hair treatment. Did I tell you at my new home I have a spa like bathroom. Here we go for DIY treatment. Will update you once I get started!

Chew

It has been a while. Many things has happened and Alhamdulillah most of it are good things. The house is ready, not fully but we consider it ready as we have been staying overnight during weekend for the past few weeks. There's still a little bit of touch up work here and there and just kena pejam mata and urut dada each time you sees a little tiny winy things that for my standard - still not done yet! But overall I am satisfied. The design is as per what we imagined, white door, white border/skirting around the house...modern english. There's a lot of windows/sliding where we can get our natural lights - though at some point mcm expose pulak sebab u can see your neighbor and all. Berangan rumah tepi pantai or dalam hutan mcm rumah Edward in Twilight :p. As we get the house ready and all - trying to furnish and to think of what is best for the kids, we look around for school and manage to register my second child to school of our choice. I had a warm feeling going to this school as the kids and the teacher are all friendly. Now the only challenge is to get Aariz to the same school and we can only do the transfer in November.And we call the office who manage the transfer, upon hearing the school name terus kata "Ala Encik susah nak masuk sekolah ni" and we where like what? I cannot be sending my kids to two different school. It's going to be manic for us to send them each morning. Belum bila no 3 masuk kindy. Anyway, we just try again in November and see how it goes. No when we said kita mampu merancang dan Tuhan yang menentukan - our plan (my plan has changed again in a blink). While getting the house ready, while scouting for schools and activities for our kids, scratching our head to get which school bus driver and all and all of sudden I am pregnant with no 4. No 4...hurm...My oh my. I know once I said maybe I shld be thinking of no 4 right after no 3...but that is all in my mind... And out of the blue I feel hungry all the time, then I start to vomit and that is the alarm. Check pregnancy test 1 negative, check 2 positive...and I am now a grumpy mummy who vomit day and night 8 weeks pregnant. Pwehhhh it took me a long week to think and think what should I do next. What I should really do. This is no 4 and no joke - my third one is still a baby!. My second is going to primary 1 next year, we are in the midst of moving house and pretty far from my parents. I mean not near enough to get them to help sending or picking up from school if there is emergency or looking after my 3rd and 4th baby... And as I think and think, things become pretty clear. Maybe I should try...maybe I should see how it goes. If I become a full time mom. I have less money or maybe no money (since it will be solely hubby punya belas ikhsan kan) but I may have the happiness. My kids may become a better person. I may not need to abandon this blog again and I can concentrate on my passion like baking and cooking! Too many to chew? Yes it is for me too.